#I am all alone...
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Every grudge that wasn't resolved is hurting at once like scars reacting to a bad weather no matter how much I try to just get distracted with irl activities or something positive, and I don't have anyone to talk about it because people I trust with it are only available when I need to sleep or am at work. I wonder how much longer I can hold it inside before I erupt like a volcano and severity of my negativity leaves everyone within reach with permanent fear of approaching me with ten yards distance 🤔
#/vent#personal#hopefully one of two things prevents this either:#1) a more 'serious' problem forces me to swim out from the depts of my depression and struggle or#2) I find someone to talk to in the RIGHT moment#curse of bad timezone and literally every irl friend changing cities if not countries#I am all alone...#not knowing how to make it stop#I have strong negative breakdowns only once in a while#I wish I could vent more 'harmonically' or forgive people even if they haven't payed or apologized#instead of the 'volcano' thing#well if it really gets bad I'll get into urgent hiatus again#I also hate how because of personality fracture it is another alter that absorbs every positive-#-stimul like a parasite right now#usually I sprout and lose alters like malenia but some stick around for a bit#maybe Im also about to fall out I don't know#right now it is just too much gravity to get out of my own head no matter what I do#all I can think about is my million bad memories until it just stops already
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everyone sh. shutd up im cooking smthn
#genshin impact#venti#what am i cooking?? no idea#oh this isnt canon? dont care leave me alone#i remember thinking years ago how badass it would be to have to fight all the archons in reverse order once u get to celestia#like. not that they want to. but celestia or the heavenly principles control them not thru the gnosis but thru their thrones#dont. dont think about it too much i do NOT have enough brains to keep up with accurate lore details#i just want to see venti having lied about being the 'weakest' archon. that bitch has a fucking church theres no way. also gap moe is hhh#fitting to have your first major ally end up being a final-ish boss fight#zilly art
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Omega!Steve who is kinda nauseous and offhandedly mentions it to Robin. Which is fine as she reminds him of the stomach bug the kids had and he's suddenly concerned about making Robin sick (thinking about himself being sick doesn't even cross his mind).
Except, someone overhears it. Someone overhead that Steve was nauseous and spread that he was pregnant. Which gets spread around like wildfire. Poor single omega Steve pupped up.
Cue it being like 11pm at night and someone is frantically knocking on Steve's door. He's all bleary eyed and opens the door. Standing on the other side is Alpha Eddie with a bouquet of roses, a teddy bear, and a bag of what appears to be food.
Eddie who could not believe the audacity of some alpha who pupped Steve up and left. Steve!!! Its unconsciousable and if given the chance he would rip that alpha to shreds. So, of course, he's showing up. He's ready to step up to the plate.
#Eddie is like I know its all bs traditional norms but you don't deserve to go through this alone and I am here for you#And Steve is just like ???? I was asleep????#Steve shuts the door in Eddie's face before he processes what's going on and he opens the door again#Have you ever seen those golden retrievers that look real sad and dejected and then immediately perk up and wag their tail when spoken to#Yeah thats Eddie rn#Steve is wondering why Eddie is waking him up at 11 talking about some alpha when he has work in the morning#It doesn't even get solved that night it doesn't get figured out until the morning because all Steve said was “sleep is so important for me#And Eddie was like oh yes the pup you do need rest meanwhile Steve meant he gets bitchy when tired and he works#Omega Steve Harrington#Alpha Eddie Munson#Steddie#Jade is talking
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i think dan should get to be a little weird too. as a treat
#my art#re animator#herbert west#daniel cain#dan cain#danbert#no but srsly guys i get that hes the normal guy but you forget ... HES ALSO WEIRD !!! HES SO STRANGE !!!#if he was normal he would have called the cops on herbert ages ago#but guess what babey he ... well technically he did call the cops but he waited like 20 years to do it so .. !!#bro was an enabler dont forget that#sorry im like rlly crazy about dan...#which is unfortuante bc i feel kind of alone in that like YES herberts a baddie YES hes litterally me#but dan....... DAAAAAAAAAAAN (eagle screeching)#what the fuck am i saying!#edit hey guys its actually lucid dog that rant you see above you was written at likes 6am after an all nighter#we all know dan is weird i mainly meant i think he should get to be PORTRAYED as weird more#really im just weird about him (<3) and i need him to reflect that
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i love your riddle design so much, he's so pointy and british. so gracious. do you think he would enjoy a brazilian goiabada
thank you! ❤️🖤❤️ it's just. important to me on a level I can't explain that Riddle have an extremely pointy nose that he can stick into everyone else's business.
also goiabada is sweet and fruity and red, I think he would like it very much indeed!
not me stealth-editing because I forgot his antenna whoops
#art#twisted wonderland#me: riddle's nose is important to me (draws him without a nose)#a study in contrasts?#regardless it is my power as a fanartist to let riddle eat sweets and by god i'm going to use it#i also love british riddle. briddle. it's just RIGHT.#i think about how someday the anime will come out and get dubbed and riddle is going to have Generic Anime Boy Voice#instead of the most over-the-top prim little benedict cumberbatch accent like he does in my HEART#and the world shall be poorer for it. alas.#i also think it would be VERY funny if malleus had a super exaggerated french accent because something something french fairytale#i am probably alone in this however#(sorry still trying to catch up on everything!)#(all of my focus has been going towards Deadlines so hopefully i will have space to think...eventually :')#(i still have some main story things cookin' and i JUST finished tsumsted 3: the squeakquel so uhhh)#(there may be a bit of a flood at some point. you've been warned.)
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happy halloween! 🎃🐈⬛👻🐇
#i just wanted to draw emu as a jiangshi .#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#polysho#enjoy halloween everynyan unfortunately i have to go work a shift. i thought abt dressing up for fun when i get back#but 1 im lazy 2 i dont live alone and its my luck that somebody ends up knocking when im in the middle of being dressed like a clown#so i would rather not risk it. idk how people get into cosplay just for photoshoots/videos i dont have that conviction .#but halloween con was lots of fun and i got to see friends and trade candy so i enjoyed my celebration already. ^_^#also STOP BEATING THE SHITNOUT OF ME IDEK IF I CAN BOOO BACK FROM A SIDE BLOG. YOURE KILLUNG ME#once again some random guy will be hittimg you back. boo#to end my tags i am going to be pissed off because i cannot draw well rn and its KILLING MEEEEEE#im art blocked as hell and mad about it. my zines....#its so annoying like with my personal art its whatever but people spend Money on zines i need to get good.#its been like over a week so i thought inwould be free. sigh#i often draw emu fiending off of tsukasa. the way things should be. amen#also inthink rui would love to go all out for costumes but he got busy modding a tshirt launcher to shoot candy and forgot abt his costume#so hes a tuxedo cat. he thinks hes so funny
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I'M NOT YOUR DOLL AND I'LL THINK FOR MYSELF AND I'LL LIVE FOR MYSELF
#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#eddie dear#senjart#so#so. SO!#SO ABOUT TODAY'S UPDATE. WELL.#WELLLLLL!#eddie is happy. eddie is happy!#so excited for eddie's lobotomy arc#I have many MANY thoughts about today's update. by far the best one I should say#so much implications of the situation the puppets are in#how sally is so.... harsh towards eddie#and we got shown him having an outburst when hes left alone and doesnt know what to do#like he's so underappreciated but. delivering mails and making papercrafts are all he knows#his reison de'tre#his depersonalization on the armchair during the advertisement segment AND how frank reacted to it#he dropped the ''mr dear'' pretenses and called him ''eddie'' in such a concerned voice#AND MY GOD. RED FLAGS EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!#PUPPET ON THE STRING THEORY REAL? SCRIPTS THEORY REAL? OR AM I JUST TWEAKING#HMMM HMMMMMMMMM#ANYWAYS I'LL THINK OF MORE STUFF TO ADD HERE ONCE IM NO LONGER SLEEPY
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something something future leo dies early and mikey takes on the role of cj's main mentor. something something mikey-centric movie. idk what his arc would be abt BUT I HAVE AN ITCH THAT NEEDS TO BE SCRATCHED
#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt bad future#casey junior#imagine leo sacrificing himself early into the invasion movie-style..... speedrunning his arc cuz the guilt is unbearable#also imagine.....#mikey and casey sr become badass best friends#and then mikey has to raise her son when she dies......#and its a whole thing where whenever he looks into cj's eyes he sees her and grieves and promises to protect him and teach him to survive#oh shit am i developing an au as we speak#DONT LET ME TURN THIS INTO ANOTHER AU I HAVE SO MUCH SHIT TO DRAW ALREADY!!!#all of mikey's brothers die before him#and he's alone when he makes the portal#unlike at the end of the movie when they're all by his side#never fails to destroy me man
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thinking about Siffrin’s design being (subconsciously) influenced by Snufkin is fun because despite both appearing as mysterious, cool, somewhat aloof travelers, their attitudes regarding companionship are like. almost inverted.
Snufkin deeply values his friendships but also needs time to be alone, to experience the world and travel solo and uninhibited. he’s independent, self-assured, experienced, free-spirited, mischievous at times. someone comforting and fun to be around, but that you can’t hold onto too tightly without stifling him. to try to keep him close would be to keep him trapped, wings clipped, suffocating. he has to be free to roam as he pleases.
Siffrin probably seems exactly like that from the outside! everyone seems to think they can’t WAIT to hit the road unencumbered by their company. they all try to be respectful of Siffrin’s obvious personal space boundaries. and in moments of frustration, Mirabelle and Bonnie both interpret Siffrin’s attitude as him thinking he’s better than them.


all of which is the Exact Opposite of the Truth.
Siffrin sees himself as lesser, not better. instead of needing space and freedom, he craves connection and permanence. they want to be tethered to something, someone. “letting them be free” is as good as telling him he’s unwanted, “respecting his boundaries” is like pushing them away.
and both the party and Siffrin would have remained mired in their misinterpretations if the loops hadn’t dredged up all the issues and agony from whatever depths Siffrin had buried them in.
‼️ PSA: If you ever acquire a small traveler in a pointy wide-brimmed hat, heeled boots, and a worn cloak, please do your research and confirm if you have obtained a Snufkin or a Siffrin. They may appear similar but the methods for responsible care are VERY different. Handling a Siffrin as you would a Snufkin and vice versa will result in great emotional and physical distress for the fellow. Do your due diligence before committing to their care ‼️
#someone tagged a post about how Siffrin sees Odile as ‘traveler by choice vs traveler by force’ and i think about that phrase a lot#OH UPDATE the credit for that tag goes to sleepsi!#mypost#isat spoilers#isat#in stars and time spoilers#in stars and time#i like that some people are tagging this post with whether they’re a snufkin or a siffrin.#i am much more of a snufkin (alone =/= lonely at ALL for me) tbh but with a dash of siffrin’s bad self esteem tendencies
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you see a perfect popular girl and i see a sweet baby angel who’s a closeted lesbian who actually hates herself and has to hide behind a popular girl facade and will never be able to be her true self because she’s so scared of losing all of the people who idolize the fake her and if they don’t like her then who will she have because she couldn’t even let herself go with the one girl who gave her a chance to escape it all and be herself. also a little weirdo freak that happens to be very pretty.

#when i make my faves angsty for no reason at all#okay leave her alone tho she’s just scared#she’s my sweet angel baby princess#am i right#wlw#glinda upland#gelphie#wicked#ariana grande#elphaba thropp#cynthia erivo#glinda x elphaba#wicked movie#glinda the good witch#the wicked witch of the west#gelphie headcannons
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There is a light, I feel it in me
but only, it seems, when the dark surrounds me
@aroace-get-out-of-my-face do you understand what this post did to my brain chemistry. Do you. You and anon, do you understand. Fuck, man
full comic under the cut!
#The lyrics are from Abbey by Mitski which i was listening to while drawing this#He’s all alone now. He’s different. Did you notice how there’s no white streak in his hair#Because there’s no metal plate#And how his hair is lighter than in canon from grief and stress.#And loneliness#And the kids are so full of light and innocence while Ford can only ever be surrounded by it. But never have it for himself.#Even when it reaches out for him#He doesn’t know that he was never alone#Why did you do this to me#I was DONE making AME art until chapter 10 do you understand this. I had brushed my hands off after the animation#And then#not even a day later. Two??#You throw this at my head. And I pick up my tablet with a sigh. And begin again#One must imagine Sisyphus happy#/j /lh#When you dm-ed me the other day I was giggling cause I KNEW I was working on this#But I didn’t say anything bc this is funnier#Sorry man#my art#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#dipper pines#mabel pines#comic#abandon my eulogy#This was the kind of piece that made me question if I’d ever drawn anything before in my life but it was so worth it#tw grief#tw character death
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For moment, you are home.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#granny wen#a-yuan#wen qing#wei wuxian#wen ning#wen bin bin#Si-shu#I had hopes to post this for Valentine's day - but I chose to practice self-love and get some sleep.#Instead I am here on the day of this blog's two year anniversary to reminisce and give thanks.#Not quite about blog stuff. That's for another post. I have quite a few treats to share for this anniversary!#Rather...I've been thinking about my own relationships and the bonds I've forged and broken.#The transition between environments...when you leave somewhere and hear about how all the people you were once close with-#-have been moving on without you? It's so bittersweet.#You want to be happy for them. You wish you were at their side. You cannot be at their side.#Relationships change like the tides. They ebb and flow. Sometimes they crash so hard into the shore it reshapes it entirely.#The truth is that we are more surrounded by love than we realize. Even when we feel utterly alone - there is someone who wants to help.#And to me this scene strikes a chord in that way.#This is the reminder than even though you feel like it is all burning down around you - you are loved.#There are people who miss you. People who are so thankful for your presence in their life.#And most importantly of all. And I say this from the heart: There are people you have yet to meet.#Remember this in the darkest of days: The future is full of loves you have yet to see. The present is also full of love you forgot to see.#Another reminder to go tell someone you care about how much they mean to you today. It matters.
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AYO EDEBIRI as Sydney Adamu WILL POULTER as Luca THE BEAR SEASON 3 | Episode 10 - Forever
Are you close? Yeah. Kind of best friends and kind of lost touch, so. It's nice to reconnect. Yeah, especially when it literally is like a best friend that you saw every day of your life and you kinda went through this sort of battle together.
Bonus:
#the bear spoilers#the bear s3#the bear#sydney x luca#sydluca#sydney adamu#luca the bear#ayo edebiri#will poulter#the bear fx#tvandfilm#cinematv#the bear hulu#sorry y'all but bye sydcarmy and i am now a sydluca shipper!#cuz how these two have more warmth in one scene than anything sydcarmy had all season????#i need sydney to get a partner that actually listens to her instead of arguing#and she radiated such feminine energy in this scene and omg if that don't show how relaxed she felt around him and safe too omg i need more#next season i better see him courting her cuz i'm done with whatever was up with carmy this season#they've literally destroyed any hope of sydcarmy even happening at this point :(#and look how he reacted when the other guy walked in - he wanted to be alone with sydney!!! T_T#AND THEIR HEIGHT DIFFERENCE OMGGG MY BIGGEST WEAKNESS!
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caduceus roasting more than just the vegetables, wow
#cr spoilers#cr3e111#critical role#bells hells#the mighty nein#dorym#beauregard lionett#orym#orym of the air ashari#dorian storm#imogen temult#caduceus clay#i have been left alone in blessed quiet all day so i am finally able to get all the giffing done that i wanted to amen#hence the deluge in case you were wondering#my gifs
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was feeling kinda down this morning so i drew max six times and that seemed to do the trick
#life is strange#lis#max caulfield#chloe price#life is strange 1#life is strange double exposure#<- tag i now need to go and blacklist because if i get spoilers for this game i stg#Something Will Happen#im SO excited#anyways i lied i actually drew the pool scene a week ago but didnt like it enough to post it alone#the five near identical maxes were all today though#sometimes you gotta draw the same character the same way over and over until you stop sulking for no reason#anyways i finished my lis 1 playthrough!!#was such a blast playing through it again#i forgot how much ep 5 FUCKS#i am still in my lis mood. evidently.
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me: im not a asoryu divorce truther, but i AM an asoryu taking a break & eventual unlabeled-long-distance-situation truther. they ABSOLUTELY needed to go on different paths at the end of the game. i totally get people who rewrite them to go back home together after 2-5, but it misses the point IMO. their split is a bittersweet thing & a testament to their devotion to each other as people and friends more than it’s a toxic split and a tragedy. it’s not ryuunosuke leaving in bitter anger at kazuma’s deceit, or kazuma being idiotically self punishing. rather, it’s them mutually saying “We need to exist outside of each other for a while for our own development as people. But i would never leave you in anger. You will always be enough for me, but you also need to learn to be enough for yourself. And ultimately we will meet again at the crossroads. When we need each other the most, and we are finally ready, and we will walk our paths side by side. Unbroken, and never having been broken. And that bond is stronger than both of our deceit, violence, shyness, and ignorance combined.”
their physical split is a show of their assurance that they could never spiritually ‘fall off’ from each other. no matter what happens, they stand together in a cosmic sense. they need to be apart so that kazuma can find a self that will live past 24, and so ryuunosuke can develop the self he found in his own journey— the self that sees its value at all. basically, ryuunosuke is leaving for himself to prove that he has a self, and kazuma is staying for himself so he can learn to care about himself enough to put his struggle in the hands of the people offering to him— so he can learn to stop running. do you get me?
you, tied to a chair and actively being waterboarded: BLBLBLBLBLLBLUBUBU—
#asoryu#asoryuu#ryuuaso#ryuunosuke naruhodou#naruhodou ryuunosuke#kazuma asogi#asougi kazuma#kazuma asougi#ryunosuke naruhodo#tgaa2#tgaa spoilers#the great ace attorney#tgaac spoilers#dgs2 spoilers#dgs2#I THINK THATS ALL OF THEM?!#ugh. but yea. the shortest version of this is i think the asoryu not-breakup is them showing that they value each other as people enough to#-want the other to start putting himself first.#kazuma has his demons the fight- the anger the self destruction the self isolation. and ryuunosuke sees that and is like i am going to be-#-be here if ever you need me. you are not alone. but you are still a human person who needs to just exist for himself for a while#i like dgs if you cant. tell. i like the kind of moral thing of like. you are not alone you are never alone-#-but still you have to live for yourself. its good#oh fuck that wasn’t short at all…#whatever. I ❤️ BITTERSWEET YAOI
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